After spending the much of the weekend wasting it away on nothing much, thinking about what can I do while at the same time putting off the things that really needs to be done, either because I have no idea or no motivation on how to go about doing it.

So yeah, I've been bitten by the halfway bug. Leaving things halfway, no drive to push on and finish it once and for all, and just letting it rot.

I tell ya, I'm rotting now, and I've more or less given up on trying to stop the slide. If I'm meant to go down, then going down fighting or not is still going down. What's the difference, not like I'm in the millitary.

Someone once told me that according to my birth charts, I'll have a better life once I hit 26. Well, it looks like just the reverse, actually.

I was meant to start on the Thanksgiving entry, but I figured that I didn't want to write it in too negative a light, which of course is heavily dependant on my mood. Its ok, I'll just write it out however.

Seriously, the flavour of life is gone. Its like you chew on a chewing gum, and the flavour runs out on you, and you are left with nothing but the chewing. I've more or less given up on trying to look for a silver lining and just resigned to life. You win. I think the score is like 6-2 now in your favour, life. Because I know I've beaten the odds once or twice, but the rest of the time, you just come back and bite me.

Down to the only shining beacon in my life, and we all know who she is.