Another short entry.

Picked up Blink 182's newest album. It isn't too shabby, got a couple of nice songs in it. But I'm really losing touch with music.

I read about the two new international schools set up by ACS and Chinese High. Hwa Chong International School, headed by MR Tooh Fee San. I love my time in Chinese High, the 4 years there are the most memorable ones in my life. The 4 years have been most formative to me, and its where I gained my maturity, albeit it being still lacking.

Chinese High is where I gained that pride of being part of the big Hwa Chong family. It is where we are told that we are part of the elite, and we truly are, at the pinnacle of the education system in Singapore. Nearly there, at the very least. It is where I got away with quite alot of shit, and where I learnt the various privilleges available to one who has proved to be academically able. It is where being in the 7th percentile of the students in Singapore is something to be full of yourself.

Frankly, although we are nowhere near the snobbish attitude of ACS boys, who are obviously inferior, we have nearly the same kind of mentality drummed in. And I can't fault that. In order to achieve superior results, we must believe ourselves to be superior, that is something that is basic life principles. Yet, that feeling of superiority must be tempered with alot of humility, as it will ground us down to earth and not let us float away with pride and arrogance.

Tooh Fee San was our principal, until he "resigned" towards the end of the year when I was in Sec 4. Basically, there was alot of politics involved, and MOE engineered a plot to have him replaced, something which seriously angered alot of us. We loved him, as everyone, no matter how condemned or rebellious, respected him as a paternal figure with just the right mix of kindess and discipline around him. There was no sign that he was about to resign, and we all expected him to retire at the end of his career, when he found a worthy successor.

Instead, MOE forced a replacement, and that guy screwed Chinese High over for the next couple of years. Lost track of things now, but anyhow. Mr Tooh would be the head for the Hwa Chong International School, and I decided that I want my kids to have their education in there. The school fees are $1000 per month, but I want my kids to have an international education, not bounded by the exam-heavy system in Singapore. Instea, I want them to have an all-rounded education, and I believe an international school can do that.

And Chinese High is, in fact, more Anglo-Chinese than ACS, in that the balance between East and West is much more equal in Chinese High. There isn't any balance between East and West in ACS, basically the guys there are severely handicapped in the East section, to the point whereby they practically denounce any Oriental links. Which I despise.

Frankly, I just hate ACJC.

Just came back from KTV. I hate KTV, especially since I don't listen to Mandarin songs, and thus I can't sing almost all of those songs.

And no, lil'sis, my English has eroded in the past 2 years I spent in the army. I really need to get it up to tune again when I go over to Australia; my English standard is considered to be only good, not outstanding, in written form. And orally, my English isn't very impressive.

Maybe its because I have too much a Singlish accent. But never mind, that can be fixed. Though it might sound fake.

And fine, I smoked 2 cigs today. Sorry. But I hated it, it stank, and tasted bad, and I coughed alittle after it. I'll just be a casual smoker from now on, and I wouldn't smoke again until at least my birthday.

I have another lil'sis in a 14-year-old by the name of Kay. She's very funny, very adorable, and very cute. She never fails to tickle me with her witty remarks and act cute comments, which, might I add, she does a great job of. Crappy girls are hard to find, and guys always appreciate girls who can make fun of themselves and everyone else. They convey a sense of self-confidence; to many girls, their insufficient self-esteem prevents them from being the target of negativity, let alone producing negative remarks about themselves. Also, girls like that are more fun-loving and easy-going, something alot of guys like too.

Basically she's the mature cute lil'sis I would like. So now I have a kiddishly cute sis in Kally, adorable cute sis in Kay, protective dajie in Sharon and gossipy and argumentative erjie in Maureen. I think I've collected all the sisters that I want. Maybe I should start collecting brothers. I don't mind a really cute and young lil'bro, but I don't think I want any older brothers. Never mind.

FF3 is fun. And alil addictive. Working on it now. Money is easy to make.

And she is having a great effect on me, one that culmulates with each passing day. Grrrr, missing someone is really difficult, especially when you don't know when that person would be back. I'm trying not to let it distract me, but that is getting harder and harder each day. Someday I'll succumb, and I don't wanna, ya know, explode with emotion when she finally returns. But the longer she holds her return off, the harder that will become.

Esther's diary is no more. In her place I'll add the link to Kay's diary. I really need to change my diary's look again, to something more simple and clean.

We'll see. End of entry.