A continuation of my birthday today. Quite eventful, really.

I took another step towards my goal, and in the process? I lost my handphone, for the first time ever. Hahaha, its kinda hilarious. But never mind. What really bothers is all the contacts lost, and having to get them back again.

I've finally have a taste of what its like to be without a handphone. I feel so lost, like as if I'm totally disconnected from everyone else. Like there's a part of me that's lacking, and that I've suddenly found myself to have one less thing to do. Its a really surreal feeling.

But I guess its a good thing too. Firstly, I'm gonna get a Montblanc pen for my birthday. I earned it, after all. And I was looking out for a new handphone model today. I usually don't pay much attention to the latest handphones. I mean, I was happy with my 6100, it has sentimental value for me, having been around for 1 year, and I'm still very much happy with it. So up to now I've never really cared about the latest handphone to hit the market. Now that I'm need a new one, I've been looking around, and only at a Nokia handphone. I want a 6230. That's the handphone I'm gonna get, when I get the replacement SIM card. Till then, its an awful feeling of disorientation and displacement.

And I lost valuable SMS'es saved in my archive, especially one of the SMS from Alvina, which was 3 years old. Oh well, too bad for me. Taking stock, other than the contact numbers... hmm. Not alot of archived messages I would miss. Some of the information in there might be important, but I can't recall what. Nothing overtly worrying, I think.

And I'm gonna confess something, which might be more suited to a private entry. I guess I really am totally into her. Absence really makes the heart fonder, and I find myself really missing her alot. I'll admit it, I'm serious about her, and I can't resist it anymore. Can't convince myself that it isn't gonna result in anything, cause I'm too deep into the mire. I speak of it as a bad thing, but in truth, its either way.

I hope she'll be back. This time its for real again. *sigh*. I need to change my diary's title; emotional detachment doesn't apply, for now.

But she makes me so happy...