Your fate, your destiny, your divine plans.

Why do I get this sinking feeling that trouble will never cease looking for me? Like somehow, no matter how well things are, I can never completely elude the shade of ill-fortune.

Well, once again, I appear to write in here only when I am upset. Other times, I simply do not have the kinda inspiration to go on with it.

Maybe I should. In all honesty, things aren't as bad as they were. In fact, since the big pile of mess, circumstances are alot more bearable right now. Remember how I said that the past 2 years were a clearly-defined chapter of their own? Well, the past 2 months have been an interlude, and now I can rightly declare that a new chapter is open. Things may not be as drastically different after all. I'm still going back to Perth, my car is still with me, and the stormcloud is still waiting for my arrival. Hopefully with the 3 months of rest, and with the amazing sequence of events that have occured during this interlude, I'll be better equipped for what lies ahead.

Am I lucky? Am I really lucky? To be honest, is there anyone out there who'll rather be me? It may appear that way, that on the surface, things may be rosier than they really are. I don't think I'm exceptionally lucky, for every piece of good fortune I have is circumvented by a piece of misfortune. I'll readily admit that certain things seem to befall me with alot more frequency than for most other people, but they swing both ways: I get the best luck and the best shit as well.

Never in my life have I dreaded something so much. If going back to Perth was difficult back then, even for a month, it's gonna be alot more so for the next nine months. Not even army was such a fear; while in army I knew not exactly what was awaiting me, this time round, I know what is ahead, and I really don't look forward to it. The only only reason why I am going back is just time, everything else points to me staying in Singapore. At any rate, it's quite obvious that I'll not be one to work overseas.

To be ignored: to the three, no actually, to the 3.5 persons who are currently on frosty terms with me, namely: jf, at, fp and js (name initials), I really don't know how to restore things anymore. Maybe certain things can't be fixed, or maybe I'm trying too hard, or maybe it takes time. Just know that I care for you guys, each of you in a different way. I don't know what am I to do right now, in all honesty. Lets just see how things churn out.

In other news, Newcastle has signed a defender in Onyewu. I'm not too famiiar with them, but I am glad for a step in the right direction: shoring up the horrible defence. I'm still crossing my fingers for an European berth at the end of the season, and as always, we are still in the UEFA cup and that's always a hope for a trophy to end the drought.

Movies. Been catching quite a few movies recently. I wanted to watch Babel, but the sheer artistic quality of the film just blew me away, and I failed to appreciate many of its more abstract aspects. Nevertheless, it's still a decent film, and shows just how much arty-farty shows deviate from the mainstream crap that Hollywood churns out. Happy Birthday was decent, a regular love story with a slight twist. Ghost Tunnel was pretty crappy; a horror show out to scare you with cheap shots and no plot at all. Only saving grace was a hot female lead and a hot date to accompany me. Once In A Summer was actually quite good, a romantic comedy which achieves both goals perfectly.

In thinking about other lighter topics to blog about, something that can be racist came across my mind. But I'll rather not get into trouble for it.

OH YES! eBay has decided to ban the sale of digital goods, especially items on World of Warcraft and on other areas. Of concern is that MTGO items may also be affected as well. It's actually quite a cause for concern, and I'm not sure as to how resolute is eBay on supervising this. One big mess that I'll rather not talk about.

Dune is actually in fact the best science fiction series ever written. One comment even likened it to Lord of the Rings and the fantasy genre. It is that huge, and when you think about it, the movie Dune came out at least a decade earlier than Lord of the Rings. At any rate, I got to admit that I never really got into the flow of the abstract language that Frank Herbert used. I enjoy the universe alot, especially in the simplified writings of Brian Herbert. Dune is indeed quite facsinating in that sense.

Oh, talking about that, I recently picked up another book by Brian Herbert called Timeweb. At first, I really struggled to go through with the book. In trying to paint a new universe altogether and advancing a plot, there was quite an information overload with little plot advances at the same time. However, as the different galatic races unfolded and as the storyline developed, I was slowly drawn in. Towards the end, the mystical factor became quite intriguing, and the race of the Tulyan. I especially like the descriptions of the Tulyan: they sound like a regal and noble tribe. The main character, Noah Watanabe, develops nicely, and I like the way everything's moving along. Political intrigue is present but in minimal quantities.

Alrighty, time for me to catch up on much needed sleep!