Where is your God now?

That's just a random line coming from some movie I can't remember, but yeah, this entry has nothing to do with it.

Sometimes I do feel oh so inadequate. Like nothing I do seems to be up to standard. And times like this I start to lose my self-belief and just go downhill. Maybe I just ain't good enough, I suppose.

I guess sometimes we just need praise, recognition or rewards for anything we do. I'm just generalizing, nothing in particular is sticking out.

I'm quite stumped on what else to blog anyhow. I did have something I could blog about. Well, I guess I could do so.

But then again, I forgot much of what is it I wanted to talk about.

Just feeling empty. I'm hoping that once I'm back in Singapore things will get better. Perth is mighty boring. Superbly boring to me.

I just walked to the laundry room to grab my clothes and I realized that I'm less than 2 weeks away from leaving Currie Hall for good. I don't feel like I'm gonna miss it alot. Well, I think what I'll miss is having all those personal space around me. Having a room to myself entirely is a good thing. Since I hate my mum intruding on me all the time back home, it's a good thing, I suppose.

I do miss Jennifer. I miss just being able to go for a drive with a car. Hey, I might be feeling empty because I don't have a car anymore! But anyway, yeah, Jennifer was a great friend. Gosh, losing your first car is like losing your first love. I was just viewing this forum thread on Somethingawful on people's first car. And wow, I guess its something that you don't forget (for guys at least). Some guy got a nice Audi TT, but the most were just beat up old cars. But I would think that to many guys, especially Singaporean guys, the first car is more memorable than the first love. Bwahaha!

Yeah, having a car was great. Like the convenience and the adventures. The dramas that unfolded that I never ever thought would happen to me, did. Somehow, you grow up expecting your life to be mundane and not change much, but earthquakes happen.

So right, maybe I should go sleep, and wake up tomorrow a better person. Thanks to influences I'm now converted to a morning person. I actually discovered that I absorb everything really fast in the mornings. Amazing huh? Never thought it'll get to this day.

Actually. Maybe I really need to go back to God. I remember saying that people without God feel empty inside, and man always fail us but God will never fail.

But then again, God will fail us, not because He is not perfect, but rather because we are flawed and thus have flawed expectations.

People change. Things change. Everything changes, eventually. The only thing that is certain is change. The only saving grace is that the rate of change varies. Some things take longer than a lifetime to change. Others can change in the blink of an eye. Everything else falls in between.

Empty inside, need filling. Something, anything. Could be love, could be greed, could be lust, could be sloth. Could be work, could be God. Could be success, could be fun. Could be purpose, could be motive. When you just need something more than an empty husk.