been a long time since i've blogged seriously in any capacity. life has been, well, life! exciting, to say the least. life just has a way of getting to you, no matter how much you thought you had it figured it, it'll come around with the surprise of the month and leave you chasing after something all over again. amazing thing it is. things aren't as rosy as before, well, i don't think it's been rosy for quite some time already. it feels like the last time everything went smoothly was quite a long time ago. only that, well, hey, i have so much more going on now, and it's harder to have everything all good at the same time. like a mechanical monster, some part always breaks down somewhere, and once you've fixed it, another breaks down. but i guess the key thing is to make a habit out of things. once you are used to it, it becomes easier to do. will not bother so much with updates on everything that's going on. lets just say that the job, although the least of my worries, sucks the most, things with settlers aren't turning out one way, but rather the other way, and while the first way is ideal, the second way isn't that bad for me, personally. i guess i'm torn into many different parts about what to do. part of me (influenced by those who really care about me) want me to take a stable job and build a career. the other part of me wants to be drawing a 5 figure income by the end of this year. no wait, just $8000 takehome would be great. can i meet that goal? i sure hope so. its gonna take alot of hardwork and effort, but at the end of the day, i hope i can make it. well, gonna go off now, so i'll pause my blog entry here and leave it for home.