I suddenly have this impulse to want to blog about my beloved.

In life, there are many things that are constantly demanding your immediate attention. Some of them may be tasks which you rather not attend to given the choice, some of them may be recreational diversions that you indulge in, some of them may be trying to cover up for things that should not have happen, and the rest are your committment to friends, family and work.

So sometimes you are not always focused on the same thing. Things will take your concentration, your energy, your thoughts, draw upon your patience, your determination, and your strength. When this happens, I tend to, just temporarily, for the moment, until the fire is put out, place her on a lower rank of my list of priorities.

This is not because I care about her any less, or she matters any less to me. In fact, it does mean the opposite: that I just wanna get whatever there is out of the way so that I can resume being all about her again. Of course, there are certain things which we all have to do for longer periods of time (eg work), then we gotta get it done so that we can build towards a stable future.

So when I dismiss a comment with a grunt or an absent-minded nod, it doesn't mean you are not important to me anymore. You are never not important to me, because you define me. You are always on my mind, and instead of not being able to keep you in it, I am unable to keep you out of it. Without you, there seems to be little motivation to do anything else.

You are the one for me, believe me when I say this.