running low on reserves nowadays. feels like i'm draining out and always tired and sleepy, and can never get enough of coffee, coffee and coffee. if this goes on i'm gonna go coffee + cigarettes again. bound to make things work.

smokers claim that it can help them destress. and its a myth; it makes them more stressed. i can try to deal with the stress, if only i can feel more awake and energetic. which i know smoking does help with; nicotine is a stimulant after all.

just got thrown a lifeline. don't have to work tomorrow. thought i had to and packed my week accordingly.

now i get a decent breather and some leeway to do the same amount of things over a longer period of time.

oh time oh time, how precious art thou.

back to it. i feel like i'm hanging on, clinging on, hoping for a reversal. i'm keeping my fingers crossed for the next 4 months, but until then, damn, it seems so difficult.

more in the near future when i actually have the time